This entry needs to stand on it’s own — a delightful narrative ensues:
It’s come to my attention, by mention from a Very Important Person, that I’ve been working with a troll. I’m not sure if he lives under some metaphorical bridge, or whether I need to rent some billy goats from this Very Important person to defeat this troll, but I’m Told By the Very Important Person that I _must_ think this person is a troll, and that by supporting him I am hurting people of color, and that I must stop to be in the good graces of this Very Important Person.
I reject all of the above. The “troll” is a highly intense person, who has had some issues dealing with things that people of color deal with, and has made his way through discovering solutions the best he can. Accuse him of being intense, sometimes hyperbolic when struggling with white-world, even accuse him of not always figuring out the best way to handle a given situation, occasionally taking effort to direct his energy in the most useful direction, and I’ll agree, with the caveat that I’ve committed all the above transgressions in the process of handling my disabilities, and I think most people have done so to some degree in their handling of life in general.
This “troll” has learned mass amounts of programming and organizational skills and interpersonal skills while I’ve worked with him on various projects. HIs energy has been increasingly well directed towards projects that can gain him the kind of life he wants. If mistakes have been made that I haven’t been privy to, they do not rewrite or cancel out the positives. And even the mistakes that I _have_ been privy to do not make a person evil, especially when overpowered by the good
And on top of it all, _it is not my place as a white person to tell the “troll” how to take the onslaught of whiteness in the world_. I say this _as_ a white person. It seems suspect when I’m told to “other” a person of color that I’ve come to know–one of far too few in my life, to be honest–no matter what has transgressed between him and other people.
I reject, in all but the most completely extreme situations, writing people off as trolls based on the hearsay of others. Critique unskillful approcahes to life, yes, and try to redirect ineffective energy. And feel free to not get along with people you just don’t see eye to eye. But I’m not writing people off as trolls that I see as having incredible potential.
Canin Apriori is one of those people. I have found personal and professional interaction with him to be enjoyable even through some tough times. I daresay he, and many others, have had hard times dealing with _me_ as I struggle to deal with autism, schizophrenia, and Tourette Syndrome. But the relationship remains.